I hear everyone talk about how "currupt" this biz is...

& .....I will admit that I have had some rough experiences during my few years on the scene.

I also hear people say things like, "if one is not strong they should stay out of it",.............. but to me its not that simple.

Is it that simple to you?

I know am a strong person [according to my def] and could be percieved as very POWERFUL because I am smart, ........but I don't have all the answers so to me its "frontin" to act better than the next person just because i have the personality to pull it off. But I am sure you know people that do! I know plenty! I admit, I cry....I get stressed and say Im never coming back after every Style Warz....I've jumped the gun....I've opened myself up for criticism..

...am I weak for that? Am I missing the clues?? What is the definition of being strong??? How does one grow stronger??? After every setback should one feel like their strength is deminishing? Does self esteem factor into any of this?

SO many give off this air of confidence and are so prepared to deal with the heartache that comes with this biz....... and compared to them....I think I may not be cut out for RAP!

I struggle with this. I like a challenge, but fighting a losing battle is not an endeavour I would gladly take on. All I want to do is help spread the good news..... not deal with bullshit and ignorant people that think it makes them seem more official to be a prick.

I deal with people involved in the industry from all over the world.....there are similar personality traits that they all display, but some of the stuff that you all think is acceptible is not the "norm"--so please stop saying that!

True, this biz attracts dickheads on a power trip, but that doesn't mean that everyone accepts that. We need to ride for the right shit! If you let people be disrespectful to you in your hometown....they will do it again and others will think that we are cool with that. If bad behavior on the part of person not involved in the struggle was not accepted - you'd be surprised how much respect we'd recieve.

You have the be the change you want to see in the world- Ghandi

^^^^What it means to you..... the "guard" will change one day...life is a cycle....new label heads...new regional directors...new PDs....could be you ...or me even.....

Stay true to you...never let anyone tell you that you aren't cut out for something because you aren't like everyone else.

Be ORIGINAL! There is nothing wrong with being a good person in a currupt environment. That is what will make you stand out. This true for rappers who do their own thing, hip hop ambassadors that cry, rugby players in wheelchairs. The blanket descriptions and preconcieved notions that many of us hold on to are what hinder us....feel me or not! holla back!


Hope you all have a good day!